Rossmylife

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  • The truth has been let out.

    Alot to say in a few words. People can not be trusted. Truth is just a word to some people. Honest has gone out the window. Trust no one, unless you see action with those words.

    I trusted someone and their true color have come out. Called them on the carpet. Get the i am sorry word. A word that has no true meaning to them. Heard it before from them, this is the last time. Now no messages from them. So it was true, what was found out.

    Now is the time to say good bye from me. The wall is going up forever. Would not end this way if they were completely honest. Love my life, hint another hit in my life. Too many to count now.

    All Ihave to say is, life is full of chances. But you can only take so many and get burned. nd you ask why some people don’t give any chances anymore. People do not have true honesty in them. Good night to all, the fools that we are.

  • The time has come.

    Thinking about what has happen over the last couple of months has changed me in so many ways. To meet someone online, which I really was not into meeting a person online. To the discussion, the hopes and dreams we both have. Just getting to know each other through talking.

    Well as we talk more and more, we realize that both of us are looking for same thing. Not rushing things or even talking about a relationship. But, as things progress, we both started to feel a strong connection. There is a big age difference between us and was upfront on that. She felt more open to take down her wall. Saying how open and honest about everything we talk about.

    This brings us to the beginning of a possible relationship. Even though we both were not looking for one. She opened up saying that she had strong feelings for me. Well that opened the door to admitting I was feeling the same way. Note, we have yet to meet in person. So, after a months we made plans to meet. She was coming to see me,

    As plans began to develop for being together, our relationship was growing to being completely one on one. Not seeing anyone else. To the point now that she had falling in love with me, yet we need to meet and talk more for this relationship to last. Well now my heart and soul has been stolen by her. Did not think it would happen to me at this stage in my life.

    Now the truth is going to happen, this Saturday she flys in. We plan on getting to know each other, as she will be here for two weeks. Told her that we are going to adventure around the state and have our deep discussion while driving.She was all in on this plan. New places, new relationship, starts with an adventure together. Having no set plans on where we are going, only on the first two nights. That will see if this is truly good life we both want.

    Both agreeing that if it does not feel right, that there is now hard feelings against the other. But, will remain friends. Since we can tell the other person everything. She can go back home at anytime during the visit. In my mind i really think she is someone to live my rest of my life with. She has been hinting about the same feeling.

    Well time is going to tell, hoping this is right path for our journey

  • RETHINKING

    Back after a little break. My thinking process has been all over the place lately. Time now is to think things through from a third-party view. Something that people should do from time to time. And now is the time time for me.

    Looking at my life and decision that I have been through, in others people eye’s may scare people away. Looking at it, you wonder if that was the right way to hand it or not. You have to look at it as life’s test. Life is full test, I surely know that.

    As a third person looking in, you may not agree with those decisions. That outside view possible is the best, seeing you are not personally involved. As I look at a new question in my life I am truly believe that I should look at from a third-party view. A person that you meet and grown to know (maybe) has not asked for anything. But all of a sudden they ask for some financial help. They need before taking a trip. We are talking high-end Looking in at it from a thrid party view it shows red flags are up in the air now.

    What do you say to that person, it’s just all been leading up to this. Why do they ask at the last minute, they say they need it to travel. Haven’t they traveled before. But for the amount they asking for assistance with is alot. So you say i can help you alittle between two different amounts and they assume the highest amount…..ding ding ding. Red flag is showing it’s face now. It’s time to tell them, re-evaluate this relationship. Don’t take another hit. If they are true to who they are they will understand the words no, because you have doubts.

  • Time for a break

    Everyone needs a break in their life. To sit back and realize what is going on in their life. As we think about our past, present and future. It gives us a chance to reevaluate everything. The past we can not change, the present we can begin a change. The future is what happens because of things of our past and the changes we decide in the present.

    Time right now is the most important time. It’s time I take that break. Reassuring that my future is is going to be better. To remove the people, things and thinking that have put me in this situation. To reach for the goal, part of which I have since starting a bucket list. As you can mark off the things as you do them and add new things to the list.

    it’s time to start something new, remove the person that put me into a funk. Tired of lies or as they say. WHITE LIES. Honest goes along way, you may not like it, but you know where you stand. Honest also builds the trust in that person. Time to go, clear the Mind. Body and Soul. New me, new life.

  • The True is all I ask for.

    Don’t you wish everyone was honest. You trust them to be. You give them a chase to tell you the true answer with no judgment or bad feels about them How can you have hate or be mad, if they say the truth. Even though you may not like what they say. Well the truth has come out,

    So it is time. To confront that person, Will they try to back petal. You may have put alot into this relationship and over that time you gave them a chance come forward. They don’t, So the time and money (money is not a problem) and thinking gone into this relationship is now broken. Especially if you had feelings for them and they stated the same. Well it’s was all a lie.

    Now I can say I am done with people. Will not trust anyone again. Saying good bye to this person and believe karma will do justice. I can say that I have not really said that I hate someone. But, I can say it now, you are a liar and a fraud.

  • The Question, Anwser

    It’s been a rough road in life, everyone’s has their ups and downs. See my life history, I been through alot and still struggling on life decisions. Major one is happening right now. To continue the new relationship or not. Has there been red flags, in my mind yes..

    So the mind is taking over the issue at hand. Certain events have happen, even though they explained why. But, it did happen and continues. Actions do speak louder than words and that makes you question their intentions. Are they playing a game or not. So do you lfpllow your heart or your mind. Do you invest more time into this relationship or stand back and see what their next move is.

    Well I think it’s time to stand back and see. Are they true to their words and are their feelings truth or a game they are playing. My mind is telling me to put them to the test. To back away and see if they make an effort to get my attention back. May end up losing this relationship. If it’s not true involvement than why continue. Saving another bump in the road of life.

    Now the wait and for me to enjoy my life without worrying about the outcome. Their loss, not mine.

  • Issues

    We all have issues. Work, money, life, health, relationships, future, but the one that can destroy you is love. Love can rule you life if you let it happen. To be truthful it has happen to me before. Than I realize that love can be a large part of life, but not number one. But integrated with everything else.

    For example., meet someone on line, chat for a while and talk about everything. Life in general, your past, what your future may be. What you like, or dislike, relationships, what love means to you. Everything is out in the open but that little person in the far back of your brain says, hold on. Do I rethink my next move or continue on. That hard decision can make or break the connection.

    You don’t want to make a mistake again. So they’lare. not asking for anything (scamming hints, or catfishing). You make a decision to meet. Now because they can not travel far because of their job, you decide to travel to them. Take in to account flying, car rental, hotel, paying for food, dates or activities to stay. Then meet up in person to see if you are compatible and talk more.

    How much money is that worth to you, $1000- $2000-$3000-$4000 dollars. How can you put a price on this and it end as the best thing in your or a totally wrong thing. Then you have two little men in your head one on the right and the one on left. Both telling you something different as far as to go or not to go. Judgment time.

  • It’s going to happen

    Life is funny. You never figured that this will happen to you. Starting chatting with someone on line. With no intentions of doing nothing else but chat. Well as we chat things begin to change, telling alot about each other self. Yes, she is beautiful and alittle younger than me. I did say how old I was to her in the begin. She asked why I felt interested in her to chat. Well the honest true was her eyes. Eyes tell alot about someone, not only in a picture, but in person you see everything.

    Me being upfront and say what is on my mind, I don’t hide anything, ask me and I will tell you.That makes you real, lie and you will always have remember what you said. Be honest and there is no remembering to do. That started more intense chatting. She said the way I said things and don’t hold back had her mind thinking this guy is true and not a game player.

    That is when she said she was interested in more than just chatting to a friend. This had my mind in a twirl. She was interested in me even though are age differences. She said it was how I say things and that my honesty was something she looked at as to begin a relationship with. Note, we have been chatting for awhile.

    This started our relationship to more intense subjects of how each other see things and how we think. What we both feel and agreed that each other’s past is the past. Tell what we like and dislike. Admitting our dislikes and likes, most of all be open. Not afraid to say what’s on your mind knowing the other person will not get angry. Talk things out as you say.

    As all this was happening she admitted that she has feelings for me and wants to begin something more serious. This did throw me into a caution state at first. But I do have to admit that she had drawn me in too. Thinking something could happen from this. Well it has happened, we both admitted that this relationship is and will get stronger. The three word thing came out in both of us.

    Note, we have yet to meet in person do to her work, which is modeling. And tight security reasons from the agency. Well they finally have ok for her to take some time off for us. I was advised by a freind they did a background check on me, lol. Well we have plan to meet and enjoy some adventures as we get to interact in person. She told me she has been dreaming of this for awhile now. I have to admit I have butterflies in my stomach at my age.

    We both agreed to meet in a neutral place. That way we can focus on us and enjoy the time. Before going to each other’s home. As the time is coming up shortly.

    I can not believe this started from a simple hi how are you chat. To a relationship that will last. We also agree that we are not going to try and change the other person. Just be who we are and support each other. Yes she is going to continue modeling with my full support, until she decides it’s time to stop.Which the agency was worried about before talking to them.

    So if i am silent for awhile, it will just be that I am devoting all my time to see if this relationship is go to continue and grow or not. But, one thing is sure isthat both agree that no matter what happens. We both have a great friend that support each other without hard feelings.

    I will not say wish me luck,that has nothing to due with a relationship. Be who you are and don’t try to change the other person. Just blend into their life as they blend into yours. Just take it day by day and enjoy each other as you continue this journey.

  • White Lies

    Sorry it’s been awhile since last post but I am back..

    What is the definition of the phrase white lie. A harmless or trivial lie, especially one told to avoid hurting someone’s feelings. True to the matter it’s still a lie. Friendship and or relationship are based on honesty. So if you think a White Lie is ok, than you are not be totally honest with the other person.

    Funny how people thing that little white lie is ok, in their mind. When in the other person’s mind you still a lie. Come on people think this out, it’s easier to say the truth than it is to try an cover up the lie.They will have more respect and understanding to tell the truth and talk it through.

    So as I talk about this subject, what would you do if you found out about the lie. Confront them or just let it pass. If you do let it pass, are you going to ever confront them about it later in life. If so, it may easily be better to do it now when it’s fresh in your mind than to dwell on it fir awhile.

    Well that’s tonight’s thoughts.

  • Confused

    We think we know someone and believe they are not telling you the whole story. But, to find out they were holding back information that may effect a relationship. I was raised to be upfront and tell people the truth. Instead of them finding out from somewhere else. This is where trust issues start.

    Then you are confused, do you believe anything they say now. The old excuses of they didn’t want to hurt your feelings is a bunch of bull. Being open in the beginning, they then can really understand and may have no problems with it. You than talk things out instead to continue to hide things.

    It’s easier to tell it upfront than it is trying to remember what you said in the beginning. Especially when they find out, without them looking. You are then fighting a losing battle, they will put up a wall. The wall of not believing anything is true coming from your mouth.

    To say I am confused is an understatement, do you rethink this, forgive them after they explain. Or live in doubt about the whole relationship. Trying not be angered. Anger never solves the problem or provides the right answer. Waiting and thinking sometimes does, or it can be hinder. ( build of negative thoughts). We will see, but they have to make the first move on talking this out. If they don’t, so be it. Them the relationship is done, because if they really care. They would fight for this relationship to keep going.